October. I really don’t know how I can actually sum up my feelings from this month. There were moments I could feel my heart growing. It goes without saying October is my favorite month. However, this has been my favorite October yet.
The month of October started off by saying ‘yes’ to my bestfriend and love of my life when he asked if I would marry him. It was one of those moments where I felt like I was observing it rather than living it. I couldn’t have asked for anything better. The amount of love I felt that day was incredible. Not only did I feel love from my now Fiancé, but I felt love from my family and friends. Their support of our relationship was incredible. I remember going home that night falling asleep and waking up feeling like the day before didn’t even happen. Then I glanced down at my left hand and saw my engagement ring and instantly all the feelings from the day before came rushing back.
I think the theme I felt in the month of October is definitely feeling loved. My birthday reminded me I have some incredible people in my life. I spent it celebrating with my nephews and parents over breakfast. Then spent it with amazing friends in the evening just painting pumpkins, and just hanging out.
I started this project one year ago. To see how much can change in only one year is incredible. I started my 23rd year single, kind of a mess. Recovering from feeling pretty empty in LA, and then feeling thankful after moving home. I was finally having the realization the smallest moments in life are the best. Even one year later I still have a hard time holding onto those small moments but I would like to think I am getting better at it. The year had it’s up’s and down’s but goodness God is so good. I can’t wait to see my 24th year unfold just as God has planned.