Being a new mom I don’t really dress up as much as I did pre-Sawyer. Everything is all about function and basically anything that won’t get ruined easily if she spits up or bites because of teething. This kimono from PinkBlush has become a favorite of mine since it makes my “mom uniform” look really cool. PinkBlush has incredible maternity clothes that you can wear long after baby is here! Also, this little girl is getting so close to crawling. I’ve become more and more aware lately that my house is not “baby proofed” so if you have any suggestions that don’t require me to completely redecorate send them my way!
This little girl is such a busy baby. Always needing to see what’s going on around her and touch everything. Obsessed with little things like tags on clothing. She’s sitting by herself and prefers it over laying on the ground while playing. She has TWO teeth! Her little trophies for all those months of teething tears. She loves eating purée food and sitting in her high chair. Still not sleeping through the night consistently but we love her anyways.
Little monkey is three months old today! She’s growing and changing every day. We love seeing her grow into her personality. I can’t believe she’s already three months old. Stop growing!
Normally around this time of year I’m reflecting on the past year and writing down hope for the New Year. So much has happened this year it feels like two years in one! With a newborn everything tends to turn into a blur of changing diapers, nursing, and naps. So I decided to write about life lately.
- Sawyer was born November 4th.
- I’m now a stay at home mom.
- My camera roll is full of pictures of Sawyer.
- Sawyer smiles and can hold her head up! Where has time gone?! Stop growing!
- I’m still adjusting to new mom life and am constantly googling things I don’t know.
- Still waiting for baby Cooper Faison to join the baby party. Hurry up!
- I’ve recently developed a graham cracker obsession.
- We’re now Costco members thanks to my in-laws!
- Sawyer naps (sometimes) in her crib but not at night yet. Soon!
- Instead of spending my mornings in an office I spend them eating oatmeal and reading the Bible out loud to Sawyer. Only way she let’s me get through my She Reads Truth study plan.
- I’ve been learning to rejoice in life’s little victories.
It felt like we all have had a cold the whole month of December. I had just gotten over my cold when Sawyer got sick, then Aaron got sick. We wanted to get family photos done for our families for Christmas and we wanted to capture our family of three now that Sawyer was one month old. I had missed church that morning because Sawyer was still a little sniffly. We got ourselves ready and met Aaron and our friends in Downtown Stockton to take some quick photos. Even though the week prior seemed to be a blur of suctioning her nose it was a lot of fun taking our first family photos. Our friend Erik Johansson did such a great job. We love them so much.
It was a Thursday morning and I met my husband for my OB appointment. Hoping for some changing in my body that hinted at labor but at the same time it super hopeful. I’ve heard so many stories of women being at 3 cm dilated for weeks. WEEKS! Well, at this appointment there was still no change. My doctor seemed convinced I wouldn’t make it to Monday. I was scheduled to be induced due to having Gestational Diabetes through the end of my pregnancy.
I went home feeling so worn out from just going to the doctor so I decided to take a nap. As I tried to nap I felt what I thought were Braxton hicks contractions. I had been feeling them for weeks. They made it difficult to get a good nap in because they were so uncomfortable. My husband came home for lunch and as we were talking about his day so far at the office I was having trouble concentrating. The contractions seemed more frequent than usual and sharp. I jokingly told him “you might be taking me to the hospital tonight”. We both kind of laughed.
Fast forward a few hours of me timing my contractions and texting all of my pregnant and new mom friends asking if I was crazy to think I was in labor. When I realized my contractions had been 3-5 min apart for 3 hours I decided to take a shower, blow dry my hair (I know super weird), double check the hospital bag, and make our bed.
I was trying to hold off on going to the hospital until my husband came home from work. The contractions felt serious enough to call him around 4pm. I vaguely remember saying on the phone, “hey can you wrap up what you’re doing and come home to drive me to the hospital?” It was such a weird thing to say. I was convinced I was just over reacting and would just be sent home right away. As I waited for Aaron to come home I just sat in our room trying to soak up the last minutes of our family of two. If I was in labor, in the matter of days our home would be filled with the three of us.
Aaron came home (a tad frantic yet calm). He said to me, “it’s go time?” We packed up the car and drove to the hospital. As soon as we got there they had me change into a gown, monitor my contractions, and check my cervix. I was there maybe 45 min and they sent me home. I was so embarrassed. They said since I wasn’t dilated more than I was that morning I wasn’t considered to be in labor. They said my contractions are what they need to be and it could be a few hours before I was actually in labor, or it could be in the morning.
My mom had already been on her way and met us at our house with fried chicken, and mashed potatoes for dinner. I know definitely not something I should have been eating with Gestational Diabetes but I needed food! As I sat there eatingmy contractions continued to get worse. I was home for maybe 2 hours before we decided to go back to the hospital. I was now certain I was in labor. I could barely walk every time I had a contraction.
As soon as we got to the hospital they checked to see if I was dilated. I went from 3cm to 5cm in just the 2 hours I was home. The nurse told me I wasn’t going home and my baby is on it’s way. I was so terrified but so ready to meet Sawyer I’d do anything to get her out. I was moved to my delivery room and as soon as I got there requested an epidural. I probably asked for it 15 times just to remind them I wanted it. I know myself and my body and an epidural was something I had been planning for and desperately wanting. The interesting thing about labor with and epidural it felt like it was mostly just waiting for my body to change and dilate. That doesn’t necessarily mean no pain, let me be clear about that. I was clicking my epidural medicine button every chance they allowed me to. My water finally broke around 2am from turning over in bed and the nurse said “it’s only a matter of hours now”.
It wasn’t until 7am when they called my doctor in to deliver Sawyer. He came in and told me, “I’m the coach and you’re the quarter back. I’ll coach you through the whole thing. ” His goal was to have shorter amount of time pushing so I wouldn’t get tired to fast. So I had to wait until I felt like I absolutely had to push. Finally, I got to that point in labor and it was time to go. In delivery with me was Aaron and my mom. I really can’t describe how incredible Aaron was during delivery. He encouraged me the whole time, while my mom cheered me on as best as they knew how in those moments. He held one of my legs while a nurse held the other. At one point I remember them telling me they could see the top of her head with all of her crazy hair I’d soon see for myself. It motivated me to keep pushing. I so badly wanted to see my little girl. On Friday, November 4th at 9:27 am Sawyer entered the world. Before I knew it she was being placed on my chest and I could hear her let out a loud scream. Instantly tears poured down my face. Feeling a indescribable joy I never thought was possible and felt relieved she was finally here. It was in those moments I felt the joy like God originally intended for us. Before sin and shame entered the world, just joy.
They removed her from my chest to clean her up while I would be then getting stitches (gross and painful I’ll spare you the details). When I got her back I nursed her for the first time and she latched right away. More tears. She was beautiful and perfect in every way.
Officially 19 weeks as of Saturday! Holy moly! We’re are basically half way done. I seriously can’t believe how fast time is flying. Carrying a child is such a unique experience that continues to challenge me on a daily basis. I’ve been trying to soak up this season of life as much as a I can and not miss it. These past couple weeks being in my second trimester have been amazing compared to the nausea the first trimester brought. I’ve been trying to take on small projects around the house to prepare the transition of what is now the office/ guest room into the nursery. Aaron picks fun at me saying I am “nesting”. I refused to admit it at first. But now I’m embracing the fact that I am nesting and trying to make room for Baby Running. Now that we are in week 19, we are getting closer to finding out the gender of the baby. Early on in the pregnancy I was convinced it was a girl. However, in the past week or so I have been having this feeling it’s a boy. It’ll be fun to find out for certain at our appointment on June 23rd (if the baby cooperates). I’m looking forward to finding out the gender and being able to find out who God has planned to enter our lives. I can’t wait to be able to call the baby by name rather than “Baby Running”. I have been able to feel the baby kick more and more everyday. It’s such a strange yet comforting feeling. I’ve become such a light sleeper that when the baby kicks all night I am up all night trying to sleep through the kicks. I’ve noticed the baby kicks more when I drink my iced water or some sugar. Every time I drink cold water I just smile because I feel like it’s our own little game we are playing with each other. As much aches and nausea pregnancy brings I can whole heartedly say those baby kicks make it so worth it.
Officially 16 weeks pregnant and finally starting to feel less nauseous (with the exception of Saturday) and a little more like myself. It’s strange as soon as I reached week 13 or 14 of pregnancy it seemed like a fog was lifted and I could see things a little more clearly. I was no longer feeling like my brain was two steps behind every time I talk. I finally can feel my energy getting better. Wanting to organize our whole house to start making room for baby Running. Another amazing thing about week 16 is.. I can feel the baby moving around in there and it’s the most comforting feeling (and a little weird too).
Things I am looking forward to:
- finding out the gender
- registering for gender specific items
- feeling less nauseous
- organizing and starting to get the house ready to make room for baby stuff
- Decorating the nursery
- being able to eat more food!
- figuring out how to dress with a growing belly
It’s strange to think about how we are already in the second week on my second trimester. Baby is growing and so am I! I didn’t gain much weight in my first trimester due to constant state of nausea. Food is starting to taste and sounds better and better with each day. We had an ultrasound a few weeks ago and it was the first time we were able to hear the heartbeat and see baby move around. It was so surreal seeing baby do flips in my stomach and squirm a ton. I think I got more emotional seeing the baby move around and flip over than hearing the heart. It made me realize the baby is already developing it’s own personality and doing things on it’s own. We will be having another doctor’s visit on May 26th and I’ll be almost 17 weeks by then. Hoping at our next ultrasound we will be able to find out what we will be having.
It’s really hard to put 2015 into words. This year has been a year for change, and growth in my life. I don’t really know where to start. So let’s start at the beginning. As the clock stick midnight and it became 2015 I was surrounded by some of my closest friends. I was engaged to be married to my best friend and life was pretty great. The begging go the year was filled with wedding planning. My best friend got married and I had the honor to be her bridesmaid. They were sent off to their honeymoon and then my wedding planning madness was in full-swing. Planning a wedding was probably the hardest thing for me. Trying to figure out way to have the wedding we wanted without spending a ridiculous amount. As the planning came to a close we had come up with a wedding that complimented our personalities and represented the love we have for one another. I can’t even describe how wonderful our wedding day was. It was filled with so many emotions that I had no idea it was possible to feel at one time. April came and went so quickly I can’t even believe it. It truly was everything I could asked for and more.
In the midst of all the wedding planning my mom landed a pretty sweet job in Bakersfield )of all places. So around February my parents packed up all of their stuff into a uhaul and moved. This was probably one of the hardest things for me to grasp this year. I had moved away from my parents 3 times already and was about to get married and move to Stockton. It was just hard to see my parents leave the house they lived in since I was two years old. My parents moved out and my sister and her husband moved in to rent the house from my parents. I lived there with them until our wedding day.
It’s fun looking back on this year. So many memories and things happened. It’s fun to look back on different moments. Married life is hard to explain and wonderful. Looking back on this past summer makes me smile. Aaron and I went for about a week without and AC unit installed and it seemed like a month. I remember one night we played in bed eating popsicles and 10PM because it was just so warm in our house. Then realizing around Fall time that we never turned out pilot light off which resulted in our house feeling like it was boiling in the summer months. Shout out to the best neighbor friends I could ask for. Living across the street from our friends has been great. Especially in these first months of marriage. As long as I have know Aaron he always dedicates Fridays to spend time with his friends. FIFA, and the guys talking on the porch is usually included in these Friday nights. Being married I have now pretty much adopted this into my life. So every Friday around 9:30 I expect and welcome the fact that all of his friends will be pilling into our small living room. It’s been amazing to see their friendship and lives go through different seasons. I can whole heartedly say I have never felt the support from community like I have this year. Knowing Aaron and I have a community of friends that support us and are for us is incredibly encouraging. This year was far from mundane. It was full of life, tears, change, laughter, happiness and so much more.